Surveys. I'm so uncreative.

You know what's really sad?

(though 'sad' is a relative term nowadays, seeing as most everything associated with me is 'sad')

You know that I procrastinate, yes? Obsessively, yes? Unhealthily, yes?

It gets worse.

I procrastinate on stuff I like to do.

Like obsessing over House. I've failed to do that, yet.
And the whole issue with the layout for Stardusted. Haven't started that either, even though I really did come up with an idea. I even wrote it down, in pen (like usual), on the index card that happens to have really bad directions for completing the square written on it (in pen).
Oh, and there's the blog-making thing. And FTP-fixing. And general doom-inflicting.

Such is life.

Now, I'll do surveys for you two special kiddos.

For Ali:
1. Who are you? Soy Ashlyn.
2. Are we friends? The voices say.. yes!
3. When and how did we meet? In 2nd grade. In the morning. On the playground. I seem to recall the basketball court, however.
4. How have I affected you? You have made me insane, crazy, and obsessive, but all of that is good. You've also taught me what a non-dysfunctional friendship should be, even though I continually forget and make my merry way down the road of strangeness. I'm sure you've taught me other stuff, too, but I have bad memory.
5. What do you think of me? You are very cool. Possibly the coolest person ever. And you are also one of the funniest, wittiest people I've ever met. On another note, in many ways, we're disturbingly similar.
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? Er, I dunno about that one. Bad memory thing, again. But it probably was just generally hanging out and being insanely random. Heh. De shadow government.
7. How long do you think we will be friends? A long, long time. I usually only lose friends because I don't keep contact, and even when I fizzle out of your life, we can start back where we ended before. So it's all good.
8. Do you love me? In a non-sexual way. I don't swing that way - sorry, my friend.
9. Do you have a crush on me? Well, if the potatoes told me to..
10. Would you kiss me? Ditto above.
11. Would you hug me? Certainly. And it would be a nice hug. Not a hug for breaking bones. Really.
12. Physically, what stands out? Your face. Don't know what about it, but it does. And your feet, but only because I know in my head and heart that my feet are little peons compared to them.
13. Emotionally, what stands out? You have better communication skills that I do. Definitely. You're sensitive, personality-wise and of other people.
14. Do you wish I was cooler? Dude, how could you be cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? Like 9. Because you have a ski-slope nose.
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. This is much too hard for my little brain. I dub thee.. Papita. Because my brain is currently telling me that would mean little potato, though you never know. Why potatoes? Because they are extremely cool, and are associated with my empire. And that's neat.
17. Am I loveable? Of course.
18. How long have you known me? However long you said you've known me. (too lazy to figure it out)
19. Describe me in one word. Awesome.
20. What was your first impression? That is a very neat dress.
21. Do you still think that way about me now? Seeing as I doubt you wear those dresses anymore, no.
22. What do you think my weakness is? Eh, I dunno. Maybe something about being pretty sensitive. It's hard to know, now, because I don't spend so much time with you anymore, and people have a tendency to change.
23. Do you think I'll get married? Eventually, yes. Ali = loveable.
24. What makes me happy? 311, TV, potatoes, writing, Japanese (and all related), Scrubs, sporks
25. What makes me sad? Hmm.. Eh, I dunno. Pretend I wrote something interesting here.
26. What reminds you of me? Mark from Rent, Rick (Riku), Edgewood
27. If you could give me anything what would it be? The gift of.. fluency in Japanese. Written and spoken.
29. How well do you know me? Pretty well.
29. When's the last time you saw me? Back in December, like you said.
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Probably, but I don't remember.
31. Do you think I could kill someone? If the time were right, or if I decided that you were to be the lucky test subject for my mind-control device.
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? Staying the same, but possibly getting stronger because of this blog stuff.
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? Yes. But I have poor to nonexistent communication skills, as we all know.
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal/myspace and see what I say about you? Already did. Ha!

For Katherine:

1. Who are you? Ashlyn!
2. Are we friends? I had been lead to believe so.
3. When and how did we meet? 7th grade, or somewhere in that neighborbood. Through Kiran and Katherine Fu and those kids.
4. How have I affected you? Finally, another perspective on life that is sincere and not so.. cookie-cutter idealistic.
5. What do you think of me? You're an interesting person, and ditto above.
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? Hanging around at lunch, in general. I've lost track of fun stuff that's happened, but it's been very fun.
7. How long do you think we will be friends? At least through high school. For college, though, I don't know, because I am admittedly horrible at keeping contact.
8. Do you love me? In a sane, friendly way.
9. Do you have a crush on me? Nope, sorry.
10. Would you kiss me? Ditto above.
11. Would you hug me? Of course. Though you aren't really a hug kind of person, usually.
12. Physically, what stands out? Your face. There's the familiar asian-ness, but also the white-ness thrown in to mix things up a little. Your hair is also quite lovely.
13. Emotionally, what stands out? That you are more evil and cynical than I am. Or so I've been lead to believe by the voices in my head.
14. Do you wish I was cooler? You're just fine.
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? 9. Because you're pretty, dammit.
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Ratherine. I applied Ashlyn's First Principle of Names to yours, like I did to Katherine Fu's name. Therefore, you are Ratherine, Rath, Rat, etc. Heh.
17. Am I loveable? In a certain special way that I could come up with if I were a little more sane right now.
18. How long have you known me? A few years. But not really more than casually until this year, possibly a little of last.
19. Describe me in one word. Unique. Lame, I know, but it's true.
20. What was your first impression? I don't remember. I really don't. CURSE MY BAD MEMORY.
21. Do you still think that way about me now? Not applicable. Bad memory.
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married? If you want to, you will.
24. What makes me happy? music in general, classical music/instruments, vampires, Phantom of the Opera
25. What makes me sad? Eh, dunno. I'm bad at questions like this.
26. What reminds you of me? Phantom of the Opera, sun-aversion, the color black
27. If you could give me anything what would it be? Something so special that even I have not yet been alerted as to its true identity.
29. How well do you know me? Kind of well, kind of not. But it's good.
29. When's the last time you saw me? Today. At lunch.
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Don't remember. This is a common theme, tonight.
31. Do you think I could kill someone? Yes. Overwhelmingly, yes. If your head told you to do it, I think you could, and would.
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? Getting stronger, but it's kind of inevitable because of the not-very-distant starting point.
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? Almost anything, yes.
34. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal/myspace and see what I say about you? Already did. Ha!

That's all for tonight. I feel just.. drained and uncreative and generally pretty dull. I'll probably browse iTunes for a while, just for kicks, and then shower and sleep. Sorry if I said anything stupid today.

To-do:
Stardusted layout
Group blog layout
Set up group blog
Spanish presentation/poster
Industrial Revolution homework
Science homework
Remember guard practice, Monday 4-8!

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This song, if I remember correctly, has fairly amazing lyrics. So, why the hell does it happen to match my present dull uncreativity?

Because the music and singing are kind of trailing and hypnotic. At least, that's how I associate everything.

A Thousand Years by Sting
(Album: Brand New Day)

A thousand years, a thousand more,
A thousand times a million doors to eternity
I may have lived a thousand lives, a thousand times
An endless turning stairway climbs
To a tower of souls
If it takes another thousand years, a thousand wars,
The towers rise to numberless floors in space
I could shed another million tears, a million breaths,
A million names but only one truth to face

A million roads, a million fears
A million suns, ten million years of uncertainty
I could speak a million lies, a million songs,
A million rights, a million wrongs in this balance of time
But if there was a single truth, a single light
A single thought, a singular touch of grace
Then following this single point , this single flame,
The single haunted memory of your face

I still love you
I still want you
A thousand times the mysteries unfold themselves
Like galaxies in my head

I may be numberless, I may be innocent
I may know many things, I may be ignorant
Or I could ride with kings and conquer many lands
Or win this world at cards and let it slip my hands
I could be cannon food, destroyed a thousand times
Reborn as fortune's child to judge another's crimes
Or wear this pilgrim's cloak, or be a common thief
I've kept this single faith, I have but one belief

I still love you
I still want you
A thousand times the mysteries unfold themselves
Like galaxies in my head
On and on the mysteries unwind themselves
Eternities still unsaid
'Til you love me